I don’t really know how to deal with this situation. Seriously, i have came across few times, but never this. So new, yet so frightening. I guess i have to deal with it by using my own method, escaping from it. Enduring the pain, enduring the memories. Every little single pieces of those memories and thoughts are screaming so loud in my head and i wish to shut them off!
Why the heck am i so confident in that this will end badly? Maybe i am just so damn insecure and i swear this is a bad habit of mine. What to do , this is who i am , i don’t really want to change myself anymore. I have got so much time in my hand before everything ends badly. I have gotta think carefully.
I tried to call one of my sister, maybe i have never looked for her in this situation, she knows no shit about what happened and she just thinks i am a bad girlfriend. Maybe i am , or the matter of fact that is i am a bad one. Who knows. If you are judging by my words and you think i am so damn negative. Well, trust me , this is way too positive to think so.
I will just solve this using MY WAY.